Feeling a little stuck??? Turning towards instead of away

The last couple of days have been interesting yet ordinary, so I'll focus on the ordinary conversation I had with coworker that led to an interesting reflection.  I was chatting with my colleauge who was feeling a little frustrated.  She asked me "do you ever feel like you're stuck in your life?  Like you're not going anywhere?"  To which I replied "oooohhh yes!!!"  We talked a bit more about how the plans she had been trying to make for her self just kept falling apart or not working out the way she wanted them to. I thought about the number of times I've made plans in my life and how they have fallen through and the disappointment and frustration that comes with it (especially since I'm a bit of a control freak perfectionist).  I thought about how often I have asked God: "why are you letting this happen??? Everyone else around me is doing something, headed somewhere, seeing their plans come to fruition, while I'm here stuck in the same place I've been in for such a long time.  What about me???".  The questioning would lead to anger which would lead to me turning away from God and trying to do it on my own, which would lead to more failures (I think in part because I was doing it in frustration and not with a clear and focused mind).

But lately, when my plans fall through, I have slowly learned to turn to God to ask for help and guidance and understanding as to why things did not work out the way I wanted them too.  I have to believe that God wants what's best for me even when it doesn't feel like it.  So when things don't go the way I expect them to go (after I've put in so much time and effort) I have to trust God that it was for a good reason.  And while it feels like it takes forever to understand why things aren't working (after months and months and months I'm STILL waiting to understand certain things) at the very least the frustration and disappoint feels a little less, now that I turn towards God instead of away from Him (and believe me when I say turning towards instead of away has taken A LOT of effort on my part).  Those negative feelings are still there for sure, but not as...intense?    Just something to think about....

My hopeful thought for you today is: when you expereience that disappointment, heartbreak, or failure or you feel hopeless or stuck in your life, instead of getting angry with God, that you make the effort to at least try to turn towards instead of away from Him;  ask Him to help you understand and get through it.  And to consider this...just because it didn't work out now doesn't mean it won't work out in the future!  (More on that and a little bit more about me in the next blog)

Stay blessed <3